~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~This past year, I've gained back 40 of the 90 pounds I lost in 2007. I am disgusted and repulsed by my lack of control and discipline - embarrassed and ashamed by my obvious and very visible failure. Yet I would never so harshly judge anyone else - not even a stranger.
*NOTE* This is not an actual picture of me, but could be!
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23 comments:
Dana, I fight the weight battle too. I go for the pound of weight loss per week. Don't give up!
I've and lost so much weight in my life, it's ridiculous. It's about control, and I don't have a "steady Eddie" personality...
I have no discipline. None. I hear ya. But I differ from you in that I'm not even discplined enough to worry about it. Cheers!!
The good news is...spring is few weeks away which means you can go out for walks. Clothing optional, of course. ;) I'm glad that you won't judge harshly...means you're more human than others.
We never judge other people as harshly as we judge ourselves.
If someone could find a pill to cure to emotional eating, that would be one VERY wealthy person.
I have heard it's harder to maintain than to even lose.
And yeah, I don't judge others as harshly as I judge myself either. I guess we are all our own worst critic.
Must be something in the water sugar--I too have gained about that much back---I'd lost around 60 in 2002.
The stress at the end of my marriage just took its toll and let the bad food habits creep back in.
I'll get it sorted here soon--no way am I turning the big 5-0 in June weighingthis much.
Give yourself a break and then get after it;-)
It's ok..We all slip..I'm in the same boat right now.. I feel like a boat..I'm getting ready to work on it again..
Doomed, right now I'm just trying to not GAIN anything each week.
Buff, nor do I Buff - I tend to be an all or nothing kind of gal.
Matt-man, my greatest concern is that many of those who saw me lose the weight wanted nothing more than to see me fail, and now I'll get to hear the proverbial, "I told you so." Women can be exceptionally cruel.
NV, I don't judge because "I know how difficult it is to lose weight and how fragile that weight loss is. Everyone has issues, but for those of us who eat to deal with those issues, we "wear" our issues on our waist.
ASM, emotional eating has been a struggle for me for 30+ years.
FF, I'm great at losing weight! I've lost 1oo lbs (+/- 10 lbs) THREE times! Unfortunately, I'm just as good at gaining it right back!
Oh man, Dana. Anybody who would say "I told you so" would be part of the negativity in your life that you should get rid of. Seriously. Yes, there are some cruel, mean women (people?) out there, but there even more really nice, supportive ones. Ones who want to be your friend, and who want you to be happy and succeed in all you want to succeed in. You just CANNOT listen to the "I told you so" ones. People like that are a big part of the problem.
Right now I'm fat. I haven't always been, and I might not be again. I've lost and gained weight in varying amounts many times over my lifetime up to now. So I do know somewhat what it's like, although it's never the exact same for any two people. You will take care of this in YOUR way and in YOUR time. Anybody who would delight in your weight gain has much bigger problems than you will ever have.
My opinion.
I read your blog regularly, but never comment. More of a lurker, I suppose.
I have been overweight, fat, obese, whatever the appropriate term is, since I was 9 (now 45). Lost about 100 lbs once (not to mention the countless times, lose 50 here, 40 there, etc), unfortunately it found it's way back home to me, plus some.
That is the worst part of this whole weight loss. The losing weight I can handle, the maintaining not so much. I am right there with you on the embarrassment, shame, disgust by my lack of self discipline. I too don't judge anyone else...but myself, I never seem to be able to quit beating myself up! I think there lies the biggest cause of my own failure.
Sorry to have rambled on, but this did hit home. Need some sort of switch in my head to turn off all the negative, self sabotage.
I wish for you, peace & happiness!
I call myself fighting it too. I always lose the fight.
Always.
I did so great in 2004 but trying to keep up with eating healthy and everyday exercise was too much when my husband is a couch potatoe that loves junk food as much as I do and makes no effort to improve his appearance/health. He has NEVER critisized me for my weight but just the same, did not praise me enough for the loss of weight. I'm all but three pounds away from gaining back all that I took off and it was a significant amount.
I think we are just pre-programmed to a certain weight through the ages; given +/- some so many pounds. Do your best to manage it. We enjoy you no matter the outcome.
Turn, I do need to get after it, if not for the number on the scale, at least for my health!
Average, it seems I've been "getting ready" for about 6 months!
kim-d, oh! I agree, but the words hurt all the same.
Pam, thanks for de-lurking! Sometimes it's comforting (?) to know that I'm not out there alone. I hear so many people who say they are comfortable with their weight and I just cannot imagine it!
SS, I think it's aa fight I haven't made much of a priority lately.
Lu, husband has never criticized me for being overweight either, but *did* criticize me for losing the weight too quickly. He has been one of the "I told you so" people.
use my diet plan - stop weighing yourself - it works for me....
Hey we have fights ; ) and your right hun, no one should judge or has the right they don't know what youve been / going through.....
Realistic goals and you will get there, hey I am teaching ya to suck eggs ; )
laters
Nicey
Oh, Dana. How I feel your pain! Good luck with getting back on track.
I have to say that I have never had a weight problem....genetics. My weight has only fluctuated 10 lbs in the last 18 years. My eating habits have changed; I can't eat like I used to. And stress and living alone has made weight drop, but what I think is more important is being healthy. I am 46 years old and recently I have realized how out of shape I am...walking the dog, I get winded...WTF? If I had to run for my life, I couldn't. Dana I think we need to focus on health especially since all the data says that women are more at risk of not getting preventive care for heart disease and stroke.
Good luck Dana! Don't be hard on yourself!
I want to say something Dana - but I can't make the words quite materialize. I'm betting you'll get it though without words - Lee
We are always hardest on ourselves. Not to make excuses for you, BUT you have been through a whole hell of a lot recently. If anything else, now since you're getting situated and back on your feet in your new place you can now concentrate on an exercise plan or something now since you don't have to worry about the ex.
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