The fallopian oblivion was a success and I feel great, and that's even without the Vicodin!
Let me be honest here, I was really having some second thoughts as we headed to the hospital yesterday. It had absolutely nothing to do with wanting another child, but everything to do with knowing that it was no longer going to be an option. I think too, having conceived my son as a single mother, I was having a difficult time with the realization that I would never know what it was like to conceive a child in a "traditional", loving relationship. In other words, it wasn't so much that I was facing the end of my child bearing years - it was realizing that I would never share the experience of having a child with anyone in the way I had dreamed of since I was a little girl. Of course, this entire line of thinking was a little silly as there is never any guarantee that it will all be roses even when done in the "traditional" manner - but I still felt an odd sense of loss about it.
The positive side of this is that the procedure itself seemed to be the finalization that I needed. It felt good to let go of the "what-should-have-been's" - the guilt that I felt for not giving my son the "traditional" and loving family he deserved from day one. I woke up from the anesthesia knowing that I had made the right choice and was able to let go of those feelings that I didn't even realize I had been holding on to for the past 12 years. I feel like I can now go on with life, appreciating my family for what it is, and knowing this family is what I have and it really doesn't matter where it started from, it's how we finish it that matters.
No doubts, no regrets ... and the rest of my life filled with (hopefully) lots of sex without fear!
21 comments:
Glad it went well and that you feel it was the right decision.
Now, go enjoy having fearless sex!
(There's a sentence I didn't see myself ever writing before).
So happy to hear that all is well!
A family is what you make it.It doesn't matter how big or small it is.
Now get out there (once you heal) and sex it up girlfriend!
Here here!! It is indeed how you finish, family is only a concept and we each have our own.
And a here here for more sex!
R.E.H., fearless sex is great sex!
PP, I'm trying to be patient, but the anticipation is almost too much!
G-Man, it feels much better to focus on the finish than to get stuck at the starting line!
Congrats... hopefully the only less in your sex is the fearless.
YAY for fearless sex. If you're into that sort of thing. ;-)
"... it really doesn't matter where it started from, it's how we finish it that matters."
I'm totally going to remember that quote and try to follow that advice!
Glad it all went well!
Doc, I'll be pretty pissed if the less ISN'T associated with fearLESS!
Jay, I think I should do the anesthesia thing more often - that was almost a profound thought!
glad all went well
Here's to naughty,freaky, feerless sex!!
Happy to hear that things went well! Cheers to fearless sex (please take pictures and/or video)
"... it really doesn't matter where it started from, it's how we finish it that matters."
I agree with Jay. You deserve to be quoted!
I'm glad you are healthy and happier!
Also glad that you can have sex anytime or place you want =)
I tried it once and got in trouble ( sex any where I wanted that is...)
Glad you're doing well.
I don't fear having sex, I fear not having it!
Glad all is well! It will be fine!
Very well written Dana. If they did give you a scrip for Vicodin and you're not going to use it, can you have it filled and ship it to me? Cheers!!
SS, you think my sex life hasn't been naughty and freaky up to this point? It's just the FEARLESS that's been missing!
Rock, I know you like to watch. I'll get that video posted to YouPorn soon.
RLL, I'm telling you, it's the anesthesia!
Birdman, you need to learn to be just a bit sneakier! I've got some tips and tricks I can share.
Jeff, I fear not being ABLE to have it!
Buf, you were right on target when you mentioned this before the proceedure!
Matt-Man, the Vicodin is on its way!
three cheers for lots of sex.....
I agree with you on "... it really doesn't matter where it started from, it's how we finish it that matters." My boy lives with me, he is going to be 10 in April and he has had little contact with his mom for the last 7 years...
I often wonder what it's like to feel good without the help of stimulants. ;)
Glad you're doing ok. :)
DB, I think it's a great way to approach adversity!
Corky, GET AWAY FROM THE MEDICINE CABINET!
I am glad that all went well.
Also no longer to bear children, every once and a great while I get that insane desire still...my hysto was in 2004, but I haven't been able to coceive since 96. Now I borrow my nephews for an hour and all is well. I remember I don't like diapers, bottles, and all that crying.
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