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I follow Cam's school district on Twitter. Yesterday afternoon this tweet came across:
Is it bad that my first thought was, "I've got one in particular I'd like to nominate!"
I follow Cam's school district on Twitter. Yesterday afternoon this tweet came across:
We must unfortunately consider releasing teachers at Monday's Board meeting as the state considers chopping funds
Is it bad that my first thought was, "I've got one in particular I'd like to nominate!"
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I've had several people ask me if I'm OK. I always wonder how it is I am supposed to answer that inquiry. I mean, I know they are genuinely concerned, but what I want to say (and have said to at least one person) is:
No ... I'm not OK ...
My son made a threat against a school - a school that seems to be systematically attempting to accomplish an agenda that is better for them without any concern as to the well being of my son!
I want to hire an attorney but I can't afford the retainer for one and can't seem to find one who is willing to work for free.
My job is now on the line because the stress of my personal life is starting to negatively impact my job performance.
I thought I had already "lost" everything and yet now I'm finding that there is even more to lose and that no matter how hard I hold on, it continues to slip through my fingers.
And I feel like I am completely and totally alone in this. Sure, I can lean on you guys for emotional support, and I don't know where I would be without that, but at the end of the day I walk into a very empty house.
No ... I'm not OK ...
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This week has been filled with reality check moments - finally coming to grips with some of the more negative realities of my life. One of those moments came yesterday when dlk24 made he following comment on my post:
That sounds so good right now ... if I had a place to go where I would have emotional support. But the reality is that I don't. Neither my mother nor my father are emotionally balanced enough to offer emotional support. Moving near them opens the doors for an even more dysfunctional environment.
No one in my community has any interest in being there for emotional support. I've got the kid who threatened to blow up their little snowflake's middle school. They need to be protected from the evils of children like Cam, not be there for support. I'm more likely to find a bucket of tar and a bag of feathers on my doorstep than I am a "friend" in my community.
Church? Much the same way. The more issues Cam has at school, the worse his behavior becomes at church. He's been kicked out of small group the last two weeks for behavior issues. Last Wednesday he said, "I'm just a bad kid. I can't do anything right. Not at school. Not at church. It's just who I am."
So someone please tell me where that utopia of support is OK? 'Cause when I look around to all of the places it should be, I see a lot of closed doors, not open arms.
[I would] pack it in, quit my job and move me and my child to a place where I would have emotional support
That sounds so good right now ... if I had a place to go where I would have emotional support. But the reality is that I don't. Neither my mother nor my father are emotionally balanced enough to offer emotional support. Moving near them opens the doors for an even more dysfunctional environment.
No one in my community has any interest in being there for emotional support. I've got the kid who threatened to blow up their little snowflake's middle school. They need to be protected from the evils of children like Cam, not be there for support. I'm more likely to find a bucket of tar and a bag of feathers on my doorstep than I am a "friend" in my community.
Church? Much the same way. The more issues Cam has at school, the worse his behavior becomes at church. He's been kicked out of small group the last two weeks for behavior issues. Last Wednesday he said, "I'm just a bad kid. I can't do anything right. Not at school. Not at church. It's just who I am."
So someone please tell me where that utopia of support is OK? 'Cause when I look around to all of the places it should be, I see a lot of closed doors, not open arms.
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This week's favorite Dana Does Digital photos ...
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